I have a Brazilian book deal

book.deal!

I have news! Really exciting news. The piece of paper I am holding in my hands is not a bill, nor a bank statement… it’s the contract for a BRAZILIAN BOOK DEAL. Yes, a BRAZILIAN BOOK DEAL. Shall I say it again, in CAPITALS?! OK, I won’t.

This little baby dropped through the letter box at around 11am. The contact is for ‘a literary work entitled “Help Me!” by Marianne Power (‘hereinafter called ‘the Work’).’ It’s me! And I have ‘a literary work’. It’s so weird, wonderful and bloody random, I can’t quite believe it.

Some of you might remember the post I did about not going ahead with a UK book deal (http://helpmeblog.net/2014/06/27/say-fk-it-to-a-book-deal/). At the end of it I mentioned that a publisher in Brazil had expressed interest but I didn’t quite believe it. Even when a contract arrived in May for me to sign, I didn’t believe it because the Brazilian book lords hadn’t counter-signed.

It might sound paranoid but I was brought up by a business man for a father who told us not to believe anything until everything’s been signed and the money’s in the bank. Even then prepare for the fact that someone will try to nick it off you.

So all summer I heard nothing and kind of figured that it might not happen… then the contract arrived again this morning.

WITH THEIR SIGNATURE ON IT!!! YAY, YAY, YAY!

And not only am I about to be big in Brazil, I might almost be solvent at some point soon. I should be getting an advance in a couple of weeks (touch wood, fingers crossed etc) and while it’s not enough to get me out of my financial hole it’s going to be big help and combined with all the invoices outstanding from my recent bout of work, I’m really getting there.

DOUBLE YAY, YAY, YAY!

Literary fame AND money!! What more could a girl ask for?

I AM SO EFFING EXCITED AND GRATEFUL I COULD JUMP UP AND DOWN AND SCREAM AND EXPLODE.

OR JUST SAY ‘THANK YOU WORLD,’ OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

This seems to be a new (somewhat annoying) self-help habit I’ve developed. I now mutter ‘Thank you, world’ every time something good happens … you know, the big things like The Secret of My Success coming on telly when I’m hungover and on the sofa last Saturday afternoon. (Do you remember that one? With Michael J Fox looking about ten, pretending to be a financial hot-shot when actually he works in the mail room? It’s pure eighties cheesy goodness).

So thank you, world and at the risk of getting all Gwyneth at the Oscars, thank you to all my friends and family and thank you to Rowan and Liane, my super hot shot agents. Yes, I have two – because I’m THAT FLASH. Ha.

I have even found a way to tie in this news with vulnerability because I get what Brene says about being how

JOY MAKES YOU VULNERABLE

Seconds after opening the letter and wanting to burst with happiness I had that very familiar feeling that: this is too good to be true/who do you think you are/they’ll change their mind/you’ll write a crap book anyway. This is what Brene calls ‘Foreboding joy’ – so not even allowing joy for fear of the pain you’ll feel when it goes.

My initial thought was not to write this post until the money lands and that until the money lands it’s not real… then I went down the whole ‘maybe the money won’t land… and it’s not real’ thought but F**K It, in the spirit of this month I’m going to be vulnerable and believe it’s real and tell everyone about it.

It’s made me realise that I have always played down everything good that’s happened in my life because:

a) I don’t want to get ahead of myself/too big for my boots

b) I have to put myself down before someone else does

c) It might/probably will go tits up

d) Nobody likes a show off

e) It’s not cool to get excited about stuff. Much cooler to pretend that little things like Brazilian book deals are no big deal.

BUT SOD IT! MY FIRST EVER BOOK DEAL IS A BIG DEAL AND IF THE BOOK IS CRAP, SO BE IT – I WON’T BE ABLE TO READ IT IN PORTUGUESE ANYWAY!

So that’s it. Please don’t laugh at me if it all goes wrong or if I have some how imagined this. But I know you won’t. That’s another thing that Brene Brown says in Daring Greatly – being vulnerable doesn’t mean spilling your guts out to anyone, it means sharing with people who are there for you even when it’s going wrong, which is what a lot of you have been for me when I’ve been struggling over the last couple of months.

So THANK YOU and onwards. Rio, baby!!

xxx

 

33 Responses

  1. Louize says:

    Fantastic news! Can’t wait to read it! Funny was just thinking I hadn’t heard from you for a while only this morning! Spooky

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Louize, it’s funny how that works, isn’t it?

      • Karen Bird says:

        At last. Congratulations and more well deserved.
        So all that blood sweat and tears have paid off.
        I’m very pleased for you, it’s made my day hearing from you.
        I will be moving next week into the unknown with a new puppy
        and thanks to you I’ve taken the chance of a new chapter in my life
        Continue the good work.

        • Marianne Power says:

          Thank you, Karen. Where are you moving to? Tell me more – good luck with everything. Be brave. New chapters are scary but good. Keep in touch. xx

  2. Francesco Cervellera says:

    Congratulation 🙂

  3. Niki Longmuir says:

    I’m thrilled for you, that’s utterly wonderful…! Well done, xxxxx

  4. Susan Sims says:

    I’m so thrilled for you!! Dancing ’round the room on your behalf xxx

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Susan! Dancing down under… I love it. Thank you for being such a great cheerleader throughout all of it – it meant such a lot. xx

  5. Helen says:

    Congratulations. Such great news. You’re an inspiration – you believed in something and kept doggedly on even when times weren’t so easy. Well done. I’ve loved reading your posts – they’ve been insightful and entertaining. Can’t wait to hear what the next bit of new is.

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Helen – it felt very dogged!!! But worth it now, thank god. How are you? Thanks for the lovely words – I’ll be blogging more regularly from now on.

  6. Maria says:

    Well done Marianne, I have followed you from the beginning.

    So great to hear of your success. I wish you all the best, you deserve it.

    Maria

  7. Claire says:

    This is awesome news Marianne!! You’ve cheered up my day 100% xxx

  8. Rebecca Coleman says:

    I’m sure we decided about 3 years ago at one of Claire’s parties who would play you in the film but now I can’t remember who we settled on!

  9. YAAAAAYYY!!! As I said on FB, it’s brilliant news and so well deserved. I can’t wait to read it!! xxxx

  10. Sue Faldo says:

    So very pleased for you I know what a traumatic few years it’s been for you! At last a light at the end of the tunnel and not just a light a huge bright shining starlight. You deserve it and may you now go from strength to strength. Well done!
    SueX ( Sarah’s mum)

  11. Linda says:

    Fantastic news, Im so pleased for you .YYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  12. Oh. My. God! You did it Marianne! So MASSIVELY MASSIVELY happy for you, proud for you and doing whoop whoops around the room here. I can’t wait to see who plays you in the film xxxx

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Amanda – we got there in the end!!! Lovely to hear from you. I’ve been doing a lot of whooping too. I hope you are well. xxx

  13. una says:

    Fantastic, reminding of this quote I saw recently
    “Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.” — Thomas Edison
    You never gave up. Congrats.

    • Marianne Power says:

      Oh Una I love this quote. Thank you. I didn’t give up, it’s true. It was never even an option – even when things were hard. Lovely to hear from you. I hope you are well.

  14. Ali says:

    Congratulations! Can’t wait to read it all again 😊 and look forward to hearing your other news ….. xxx

  15. paul says:

    Marianne (or Bette Midler as you still are in my phone contacts – remember……??? !!)

    Just saw your message and so, so pleased for you………..lots to say and ask and from here I’ll contact Rebecca and see if we cant get together. Have thought of you often and this is just great news

    Much Love

    Paul

    Xx

  16. Rosie Gray says:

    Congratulations Marianne. So delighted to hear it all came right in the end. Get ready now for fame and maybe a little bit of fortune. xxx

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