Bye bye Feel the Fear…

Before I move on to the next book (I’m already behind schedule) I’d like to wrap up my Feel the Fear month. How was it? Did it change my life? etc etc.

So first of all, how was it? Well, in truth it was exhausting. I’ve gone my whole life without chatting up strangers, getting naked in public, performing stand-up comedy and jumping out of a plane –  so to cram them all into one month was a bit head-wrecking.

But God, it was brilliant.

I read somewhere that our fear is not that life is too short but that we don’t feel alive when we live it. How true. Most of my life is spent in a worried rut but last month I felt very alive.  Every day felt like a day when something could and would happen. It was exciting.

AND I became the most interesting person in the pub – which, as we all know, is very important.

So how did I get on with my list?

While I did sing in front of a crowd (my rendition of Don’t you want me, Baby? was a TRIUMPH – for more information read:

do stand-up (amazing!,

chat up a guy on the tube (embarrassing… ),

get naked in public (also embarrassing ),

watch a scary film (I didn’t write about it but I watched The Exorcist. All that green vomit… I thought it was silly), do my tax return, haggle, get fillings done, mole checked, eat offal, drive on the motorway and parallel park (badly).. oh, and jump out of a plane

What I didn’t do was:

Ask out a stranger, take Chris Evans to lunch,  confront someone over something they’ve done to upset me, dive off a high diving board, cycle in London, find out what people think of me (the bad stuff), lose my temper. 

Some of the unchecked items don’t bother me. I didn’t get to the diving and the cycling on time and after jumping out the plane I’ve realised I don’t get any satisfaction from facing physical fears. They are there to keep you safe and unless they’re limiting my life, I’m quite happy to leave them as is.

As for Chris Evans, well I made a valiant attempt at stalking him on Twitter and FB – and the BBC kindly got back to me to say they’d passed on one of my 80 million requests to his PA.

Other areas, however, are more telling:

With the asking out a stranger, I just didn’t meet a guy that I liked enough to ask out (except for the guy in the art class, but that would have been TOO weird).  It’s going to remain on my list and I’ll tell you as soon as I’ve done it.

As for confronting someone about something they’ve done to upset me, finding out what people think of me (the bad stuff), losing my temper. 

Well, this is where it gets sticky.

These (as well as the man stuff) are the things that I come up against every day. I never confront people or properly articulate any concerns/hurt I have. Instead I bottle it up and sulk, get passive aggressive or keep my distance. It’s my least attractive quality. And while there are a couple of situations bothering me at the moment I’ve done nothing to address them. Facing that fear will be a big one – and again, I’ll let you know.

Re losing my temper – I’ve actually decided that I don’t want to it. If I could articulate grievances calmly that would be enough. I was recently in the middle of two friends arguing over something stupid. It was unnecessary but it’s caused a lot of pain. I think it’s good to avoid it, if you can.

Re finding out what people think of me. I always imagine the bad stuff people are saying about me but I’ve realised that this is narcissistic. And as a few friends have pointed out, most of us are aware of our bad points and it’s not fair to make someone else deliver them to you on a plate, especially for a project like this.

So here I am outing my bad points myself: I am crap with money, I am flakey with plans (I say I’ll do stuff then don’t), I won’t spit out what I’m thinking or feeling (see above), I am a coward when it comes to confrontation, I can be miserable to be around (doom and gloom), I can be very selfish and lazy…  If you’d like a full list message me, and I’ll email you a telephone book.


Has fear facing changed me? YES!!

I will never forget how PROUD I felt after the stand-up comedy. It might sound silly but it felt like one of those formative moments, up there with getting my A-levels, getting my degree, getting my first job as a journalist. It felt like a real achievement.

Karaoke and chatting up strangers were also high points for different reasons. Totally out of my comfort zone and totally brilliant.

Less brilliant were my attempts at positive thinking and affirmations. Yesterday I took down all the post-it note telling me how fabulous I am and it was relief. It just felt too fake and the pressure to feel happy and in love with yourself every day is just too much. But hey ho. You can’t win them all and overall I am TOTALLY CHUFFED with what I’ve done this month.

So much so that I want to keep going.

I still have my unfinished list and as Susan Jeffers says, we aren’t living life to the full if we’re not a little bit scared every day. So this is just the beginning. I hope.


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HIGH POINTS – When you face your fears life becomes quite thrilling. Even when stuff doesn’t work out, as Jeffers says ‘You’ll handle it’ and you’ll amaze yourself by how capable you actually are.

LOW POINTS – Positive bloody thinking.

CONCLUSION: For all its exclamation marks and slogans, the wisdom in this book is sound. We’re all imprisoned by our fears – little ones, big ones – and when you tackle them you to start to feel alive.




33 Responses

  1. Louize says:

    Fantastic news! Can’t wait to read it! Funny was just thinking I hadn’t heard from you for a while only this morning! Spooky

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Louize, it’s funny how that works, isn’t it?

      • Karen Bird says:

        At last. Congratulations and more well deserved.
        So all that blood sweat and tears have paid off.
        I’m very pleased for you, it’s made my day hearing from you.
        I will be moving next week into the unknown with a new puppy
        and thanks to you I’ve taken the chance of a new chapter in my life
        Continue the good work.

        • Marianne Power says:

          Thank you, Karen. Where are you moving to? Tell me more – good luck with everything. Be brave. New chapters are scary but good. Keep in touch. xx

  2. Francesco Cervellera says:

    Congratulation 🙂

  3. Niki Longmuir says:

    I’m thrilled for you, that’s utterly wonderful…! Well done, xxxxx

  4. Susan Sims says:

    I’m so thrilled for you!! Dancing ’round the room on your behalf xxx

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Susan! Dancing down under… I love it. Thank you for being such a great cheerleader throughout all of it – it meant such a lot. xx

  5. Helen says:

    Congratulations. Such great news. You’re an inspiration – you believed in something and kept doggedly on even when times weren’t so easy. Well done. I’ve loved reading your posts – they’ve been insightful and entertaining. Can’t wait to hear what the next bit of new is.

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Helen – it felt very dogged!!! But worth it now, thank god. How are you? Thanks for the lovely words – I’ll be blogging more regularly from now on.

  6. Maria says:

    Well done Marianne, I have followed you from the beginning.

    So great to hear of your success. I wish you all the best, you deserve it.


  7. Claire says:

    This is awesome news Marianne!! You’ve cheered up my day 100% xxx

  8. Rebecca Coleman says:

    I’m sure we decided about 3 years ago at one of Claire’s parties who would play you in the film but now I can’t remember who we settled on!

  9. YAAAAAYYY!!! As I said on FB, it’s brilliant news and so well deserved. I can’t wait to read it!! xxxx

  10. Sue Faldo says:

    So very pleased for you I know what a traumatic few years it’s been for you! At last a light at the end of the tunnel and not just a light a huge bright shining starlight. You deserve it and may you now go from strength to strength. Well done!
    SueX ( Sarah’s mum)

  11. Linda says:

    Fantastic news, Im so pleased for you .YYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  12. Oh. My. God! You did it Marianne! So MASSIVELY MASSIVELY happy for you, proud for you and doing whoop whoops around the room here. I can’t wait to see who plays you in the film xxxx

    • Marianne Power says:

      Thank you Amanda – we got there in the end!!! Lovely to hear from you. I’ve been doing a lot of whooping too. I hope you are well. xxx

  13. una says:

    Fantastic, reminding of this quote I saw recently
    “Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.” — Thomas Edison
    You never gave up. Congrats.

    • Marianne Power says:

      Oh Una I love this quote. Thank you. I didn’t give up, it’s true. It was never even an option – even when things were hard. Lovely to hear from you. I hope you are well.

  14. Ali says:

    Congratulations! Can’t wait to read it all again 😊 and look forward to hearing your other news ….. xxx

  15. paul says:

    Marianne (or Bette Midler as you still are in my phone contacts – remember……??? !!)

    Just saw your message and so, so pleased for you………..lots to say and ask and from here I’ll contact Rebecca and see if we cant get together. Have thought of you often and this is just great news

    Much Love



  16. Rosie Gray says:

    Congratulations Marianne. So delighted to hear it all came right in the end. Get ready now for fame and maybe a little bit of fortune. xxx

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